Good Morning Inconsistent Caps March 18, 2011

     I've just realized how inconsistent my caps are in my titles on my blog. It's making me a bit ocd, but I don't think I'll go back and change it. I would if I cared enough though.
     We have a swim meet today. I hope I do good, but my neck kinda hurts today and I just, don't want to swim.
     Why does my neck hurt? Probably because I fell asleep on the couch last night. I was really enjoying Who's Line Is It Anyway and my cat Princess was asleep on my chest while Oliver watched from the recliner.
     Anyway, I get to hang out with Rick and Megan today! Well, most likely. With my phone not working I can only hope Rick gets back to me again on Facebook and I should probably talk to Megan now. Updates to come later, but right now, it's only 9am.

Memory Loss March 17, 2011

     For most of the day, I forgot it was St. Patrick's Day. I didn't wear green, and I didn't really mind either way. I may be Irish, but I've never really felt Irish or really done anything Irish, so I really don't feel that inclined to participate, though I would wear green if I could remember in the morning.

     In Astronomy, we got to look at light through specific pieces of film that turned the light into all colors of the spectrum, I wanted to keep mine so bad.

     For about an hour after Astronomy and before Anthro, I went into a singing room on campus and danced, sang, and screamed my heart out. It felt really good to just go nuts. Being a rock star would be epic.

     In Anthro, I passed notes with that one girl who sits in front of me again. I'm positive I made it clear that I'm taken, so hopefully she's just being friendly and lookin' for a friend to talk to. I'm just a bit creeped out by her recently though. She commented on four of my pictures, a status, and sent me a message. I always thought being stalked would feel flattering, but it really doesn't. I hope she doesn't get too attached or anything. I really just met her for the most part.

     On my way to practice I had forty minutes in between classes. I wanted to sing some more, so I walked the track and sang at the top of my lungs. (almost said lunch) I got some funny looks, but it felt too good to stop. My throat is a bit sore, I hope I continue to push it, I want to get better at singing.

     I showed up for swim practice today when I was supposed to be at my Astronomy Lab, luckily I made my lab just in time because Snix's girfriend Dani wondered why I wasn't there with him. We had a really long lab today, and we talked about black holes. It was pretty darn interesting. We also calculated how big we'd be if we were black holes. We'd be really small, but to my understanding, we'd be incredibly powerful. Maybe powerful enough to suck in the whole school! Maybe more, maybe less, but that's what Kyle and I understood. Apparently there is no law in nature keeping us from randomly turning us into black holes. Apparently, some stars are very capable too, but our sun in particular is about as capable as we are. So that's...comforting.

     I worked from 6pm-9pm tonight. On the way to work, I just wanted to vent to my dad that I'm being stalked and how I feel about it. It turned into him lecturing me on how I keep to myself too much and how I have to go out and stop limiting myself to the amount of people I meet. I really just wanted a small bit like, "Ooh that's creepy," or (pardon my vanity) "I can't blame her." At one point he even mentioned how like some guys, all some girls want is sex and to use you and that I'm very naive and trusting like he is. He just breaks off into so many tangents that I don't want to be rude, but I constantly want to ask him what his point is. In any case, I was in a good mood going into work. I don't know why I was so surprised though, to walk in with two bosses and a manager glaring at me. Frank was one of them. First words out of his mouth, "there you are little guy, you did something wrong, I need to talk to you." Just once I'd like to go to work where no one is on my case or giving me crap about anything. One day where I haven't done something horribly wrong within the first hour. It's been a month. Anyway, with just little things and other things adding up, I found myself wanting to quit and hating my job for the first two hours. The last hour wasn't SO bad, but it just isn't worth it sometimes. I don't know whether I'm going to bring up that check I lost to Frank. Really I just want to do whatever will make him less angry. If it ends up meaning me losing ninety bucks, I'll live. I just don't want to put up with how much crap I'll get if people find out. It's not friendly crap either, it's "are you some kind of stupid?" crap. I feel like I'm more trouble than I'm worth anyway. He treats me like a child as well, and though I can be childish and have a young mentality, I still like being talked to with respect. I really dislike being treated like a child. Anyway, it's over, and I'm probably gonna hit the hay soon. I have a swim meet tomorrow.

     Oh and I started rewriting a book I wanna write. I'm editing it, fixing it, and reorganizing it so I can hopefully spend most of my spring break on it. Goodnight readers, sorry I update so late, but sometimes it's just when I finish my day. Sweet dreams. PS, I may not always post it, but I miss Jessi.

Sun drained and eating a pop tart March 16, 2011

     Before I forget! The clouds yesterday were wonderful. I liked today's better, but yesterday there was a great cross hatching pattern in the sky. I enjoyed it a lot. It looked like a weaved...something.

     On with today, I spent a lot of time in Starbucks in my downtime before swim. I had a dream about Jessi last night, but I can't say I remember what it was. I just remember I woke up tired, but I was in a good mood.

     So, the clouds TODAY were especially wonderful. Let me check my ipod notes. This morning, there was a plain emote in the sky. It looked like this. o_o  The eyes were filled in, but it was funny. Behind some soft clouds to the east this morning was what looked like two suns. I'm aware that there is just one in our solar system, but hey, it was cool. I got sunburned today from swim.

     Anything else interesting? I spent some time with my mom and brother watching TV, which is one of the only ways I can spend time with them. At one point I busted up into a completely random fit of laughter on the floor. I enjoyed it, though I'm not completely sure what I was laughing about. I'm pretty sun drained though, so that may be understandable. Plus, I had to wake up at four because mom had to go into work early. My brother gave me a small massage in my room because I asked him for one. That was nice. He actually found some ticklish spot I wasn't aware of. He didn't abuse it, but when he hit it, he'd accidentally make me flinch and giggle. The massage was good, he complimented my back? I don't know. Anyway, I'm going to continue listening to "The Format" and then doing something that isn't sleep. I kinda want to go crazy and write all spring break and see where that takes me. We'll see.

Bye for now readers, sweet dreams.

As today comes to an end March 15, 2011

     Good evening readers, it's been too long has it not?

     It seems as though I haven't written in forever, probably because it really has been a long time. Anyway, down to the "good" stuff.

     Not much happened today really, and I need to get to bed real soon so I'm going to do a quick overview this time, I hope the few readers (if any) don't mind too much.

     1. I almost made a friend in the library today. I was sleeping in a chair setup I made in an abandoned corner when I decided to make some small chat with a stranger. I don't exactly remember how it all began, but she didn't seem to mind looking up from her book. I asked her if I was snoring, she said "yes." She later informed me it was definite, but not loud. I only snore on occasion to my understanding, along with sleep with my eyes open. Anyway, we talked about the dream from my mini nap, which really just consisted of the library, but set up differently. In that dream, I saw an old friend Lizzi, and she seemed to hate me and not want to talk about it for some reason. Her cheeks were very rosy like she had a lot of blush on them, kinda like the cartoons she is so good at drawing. I gave up trying to see what was wrong because I recalled her doing something slightly similar to her old best friend Katti. Or at least, that's what I understood it to be in Katti's words. Anyway, I proceeded to talk to her about music, and how I miss Flag, and all sorts of things like that. It was the average smalltalk, with my occasional outbursts of silly ideas. I asked her if she thought I was weird yet, and she used the word "amazing" instead. I told her about "The Little Prince," and we tried to find it to no avail in the library. We talked about how the ceiling to the library patio looked like it could make some waffles, and the lights that hung in the squares could be to inject filling. Eventually, she had to depart, but I was so excited to have someone to talk to I tagged along while we ate our packed lunches and people watched. I wasn't much for people watching at the moment, but she seemed to be very into it. Apparently she was home schooled her whole life. Full on home school. I began to feel like I annoyed her, and she even decided she wanted to be to class early today. Really, since the library she didn't seem to be enjoying my company. So anyway, long story short...I almost made an interesting friend today...I guess I'll just stick with Tyler, he has high tolerance of me and is just as weird.

     The light went off on me in the restroom during swim. So there I was, dripping wet from the pool, in the dark...luckily the circumstances didn't really make anything all that difficult.

     Also, if I haven't posted it on my blog yet, I have a job at Upper Crust Pizza in Vista, CA. I made eleven dollars in tips tonight because the family felt bad that they were so extremely obnoxious. I didn't mind, I thought their running kids were adorable, but EVERYONE else did. The baby blond one even excitedly screamed in a stranger's ear while he was sitting and eating. At work, I was off to do dishes, and apparently I wasn't supposed to. Frank stopped me and asked me where I was going. I said, "nowhere." He then proceeded to say, "I wasn't talking about your life, you're going to make this salad if you even know how." He isn't the nicest guy at most times and quite honestly he intimidates me, but I don't want to back out of a job I'm new to and just look like I'm giving up. I especially don't want to do so because I could use the money for school right now, and jobs are hard to find. Plus, I don't want my four friends who work there to think I'm giving up like some sort of coward. Anyway, I can't say I like my job most times, but it isn't half bad at other times.

     Dad and Joe picked me up and they ordered us all some pizza.

     The rest of the night I've been just taking it easy. 

     I missed Jessi today. Goodnight readers, sweet dreams hm? <3